I have had this sense of there being something missing lately. I can not quite put my finger on what it is either. Maybe it's just because I am not at school on-campus now. After all I did spend a year and a half going to classes full time. This kept me busy reading, studying, and doing homework. Now, I am working full time and not in school. I am trying to get everything together to re-enroll at Wesley College but in their online program. This is exciting because I had to withdraw rather sudden and unexpectedly in the fall of 2009.

That's not it though. I somewhat feel I should be doing something. Something meaningful and purposeful. I feel I am living on the sidelines somewhat. I do not feel I am in the "battlefield" but hiding in the bunker. We are to fight the good fight but I do not feel I am fighting. God has placed a call on my life and I feel I am not fulfilling it. I am still completely lost as to where He wants me to serve. I really envy people that were raised in a particular church and do not question the doctrine they believe. I on the other hand have been exposed to various doctrines and am not sure where to go.

I just want to fulfill this "call" and please the Father in heaven. I want to fill this hole that is in my life. I really need some direction.