Saturday was fun to some extent. Logan and I went to lunch at a local Chinese and sushi place. He wanted to try sushi so I told him to have at it but he couldn't have any shrimp. So, he did what anyone would do. He politely asked for something with chicken in it. He was a happy camper after that. He said he liked he but he did not eat all of it. That little man can put away some food.

After eating we headed up to Toys R Us for him to get his present. He just knew what he was going in after before we got there. After walking inside his poor little mind suddenly turned indecisive. After walking around for what seemed like hours to me he finally settled on something. He picked out a $30 Halo remote controlled helicopter. Now, I was almost excited about playing with it as he was but I didn't let him know that. He did get a little impatient because I refused to buy the batteries there and insisted on going somewhere else cheaper. Dollar store to the rescue!

We get the new toys home and tear in to the box. After charging the little machine we set out to fly it.

You know the box says it is easy to fly...

Well, they lied!!

That thing went all over the place and flipped and flopped after hitting the wall and slamming to the floor. My neighbor pointed out that it looked like a horse fly buzzing around but I say it looked like a locust flopping on the ground. Either way it was difficult.

After playing with it, or trying to, it finally ceased to fly. During all of its flopping and crashing something must have messed up. Anyway, I will attempt to do the fatherly thing and try to fix it but I can not promise anything. I think I was more disappointed than he was.

Tomorrow is August 21, 2010.

This day is special because it is my oldest son's birthday. It is hard to believe 9 years have passed since the first time I saw him in the operating room. The poor fella looked so much like me. I cherished every moment with him when we took him home. I helped feed, bathe, and change him. I would lay him on my chest and pat on his diaper until he went to sleep. He was so sweet and a little weird. He refused to sleep any where else but his own bed. He is still a little weird that way except now he only wants to use our bathroom and no one else's.

He is growing up. He has his friends and loves playing video games. He is smart and can be a little irritating. What can I say, he is just like me. His ideal birthday tomorrow is to go with me to eat Chinese food and buy his present. I feel so honored that he wants to spend the day with me but sad because Lisa feels left out. Such a tough road that his is on growing to be a man. My only wish for him in his life is to be a better man than I am.

I want him to be more faithful to God, more trust worthy to others, and to work harder. I know he will be a good man because he has a great heart.

Logan, I love you and will forever be proud of you. Happy birthday!

When I say GPS I mean God's Positioning System.

I have lost myself somewhere along the way. No wait, I think I left it at WC. For some reason when I withdraw from there I left part of myself. Not the clumsy, smart-mouthed, or procrastinating part of me but the most important part of me.

My spiritual self.

To take from Scripture, I have forgotten my first Love. That is a place in life I don't want to be. I have neglected His word. I have neglected my prayer life. I have even neglected my role as the spiritual leader in my home. I have lost my way.

I have put education and work in front of everything. All for the sake of financial decisions. Well, you know what? I believe I need to change all of that. I am thinking of finishing out the semester and taking a much needed hiatus from school. I need to shift my focus on the important things in life. I need to find myself again. I know that if I can find the person I lost, the person that is a child of God then the rest will follow.